getting excited.

Its been so long that I've totally gotten excited about something. I mean, not like a stressful, anxiety excited, but an awesome, that is so cool excited. I miss that sincere glee one gets when they are totally excited over something. I wonder if it is because I am so very stressed out. I find my self consistently thinking of what I can be doing... work, clean the house, something. I do not seem to be a happy person right now, which is wierd. I mean, I use to be a happy person, or at least much more content than I am right now.

Time for an attitude check. Take things one event at a time, not allow things to get me down, let things that don't matter go, and surrender all to God, as He is ultimately in control.

whew, what a weekend...

have you ever felt like you needed to rest or veg after a weekend vacation? well, this weekend i drove up north for my dad's birthday. we did a family excursion to tahoe (thanks giff for driving). then i drove home to LA... and man, do i feel i need a vacation from my "vacation". anyhow, this weekend was all about hanging out with family and eating some great food. thursday night giff and mom cooked up black bean soup and shrimp fajitas (yum!). friday night was at a steakhouse in the "village" at squaw valley... it was yum, but again ate too much! saturday night was "dad's choice", Osaka in Elk Grove. Giff had the bright idea for us to share a sashimi boat... he thought it be good to get the 40 piece (vs. the 30 piece). the sashimi was really yummy... but i didn't hold my share, Giff must've eaten like 25 plus of the pieces, where i had like maybe 10 and dad had a few pieces to accent his orange chicken. Yellowtail, Mackerel, Tuna, Salmon, and more -- yum!
it was great to be home with family, and dad seemed to enjoy the weekend with his kids for his birthday... plus the powder slopes of squaw weren't to bad =). giff helped me with some suggestive snowboarding tips... thanks bro. good to be home.

mission accomplished.

okay, so my shower hot water stem was leaking a few weeks back for the third time. i was able to turn the hot water lead off and take the stem out. it took me a while to find the time to take the stem out. got the stem out and found the stem's rubber seal was all messed up and cracked. dennis helped me replace the seal and i just re-installed the stem. so now, i have a working hot water handle in my shower. woohoo!

also packed the car with the snowboard and the bike for the norcal trip. the trip is for dad's birthday, with a family trip to tahoe... hence the snowboard. then visiting with friends in san jose with, hopefully, a nice easy bike ride. big thing is to just visit with mom and dad and have fun with dad... on his 60th birthday.

now, few errands tomorrow morning before hitting the road... a bit wincing with the gas costs, but i think the trip will be good for me, a bit of time to reflect.

lesson relearned.

"I can't do everything right now and there is always tomorrow." This seems to be a reoccuring lesson I learn at work every few weeks. What ends up happening is stuff gets piled up and then I try to take care of it all and then BOOM, I get overly stressed and start lashing out or end up building stress to the point of time right before explosion. Today, I decided to go for a walk and chill - release some steam. Relearned that I can't do everything myself and there is always tomorrow. Today is the first day I didn't bring home the laptop. I brought some paper work home, but it being 10pm, I think the work will stay in the backpack and it can wait to be worked tomorrow.

livin' by faith (original blog)

Well, I have had quite an afternoon. Enough built up frustration I had to take a 10 minute walk outside of the office to chill. I mean, I was seriously stressed, in fact I had a muscle strain in my chest -- man, I am too young to have a heart issue! Anyhow, the walk did me some great good. I took my ipod and listening to worship and praise songs. I am more relaxed, realizing there is only so much one person can do at a time. Right now, one thing at a time... easy to say, hard to remember to do when you have a bizzillion things to do for the office in preps for an overseas trip.
Another bonus was I went to a friend's site that he posts his daily devotions... http://groups.yahoo.com/group/TheLivingWord/
Which had an appropriate devotion for me today (Thanks Lord for making me think of Jason...):

livin' by faith.

Funny... I just blogged a bit of my frustrating day and poof, disappeared off the screen. Anyhow, I shared a bit that I went for a walk outside of the office to chill... guess I just needed a bit of reflection, time out in the sun and with the Lord.
Wanted to share what I ended coming back to, I visited my friend's site where he posts his daily devotionals, so appropriate to my afternoon today:
"I wanted to share with you guys Galations 4:15 - Where then is that sense of blessing you had? For I bear you witness that, if possible, you would have plucked out your eyes and given them to me. (NASB)
Have you lost your joy? Pauls sensed that the Galations had lost the joy of their salvation because of legalism. Legalism can take away joy because
- it makes people feel guilty rather than loved;
- it produces self-hatred rather than humility;
- it stresses performance over relationship;
- it points out how far short we fall rather than how far we've come because of what Christ did for us.
If you feel guilty and inadequate, check your focus. Are you living by faith in Christ or by trying to live up to the demans and expectations of others?" (Jason Park: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/TheLivingWord/message/1128)
Thanks Jason, needed this bit of of the Living Word just now.

lovin' the sun.

okay, it is a bit chilly and windy in southern california, but I am totally lovin' the beautiful sun. yes, you've guess right, I am no longer in DC and I am now home... home sweet home where i need to work on my kitchen sink, master shower, master bathroom faucet, dryer duct... you get the idea. although, home is sweet, need to spend time there so I can keep things up-kept. i have so many projects and mini-projects for home improvement.

though spring break is over, for my cousins, I will be taking another bit of an excursion with my immediate family: mom, dad and big bro to tahoe for some snow fun and to celebrate dad's b-day. giff and i will be boarding probably, which will be a blast. yeah, its dad's birthday,but the kids are going to have a bit of fun too.

a few more days of productive work, and i am hoping to leave the laptop at home and not take it with me on this weekend trip to northern california. work, gotta make some better boundaries!

resume update 2005.

I've been putting off writing my resume for some time now. Well, more like updating my resume. Haven't updated my resume since the one used trying to get a job out of college. Now is the inevitable, need to update my resume. One to keep it up-to-date, in case... and two, ... well, one is the prime reason. I may use it to see what my "worth" is out in the industry because right now work is so very frustrating at times, most of the times. Or its I let it get to me, wish I could have the wherewithall to not let it get to me.

So I may start jotting my resume updates during the last few days of my well deserved vacation.

Need to put it up to see if I can get an IT gig in Anarctica... (heehee.... my brother's adventure influence on me... thanks Giff!). Not sure if I'd take it, I am just curious if they'd offer me an interview. Would be a nice segway into a career or company change.